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:: D.o.m.i.n.o ::Did you know these colours that your shining are surely not the best... 11月30日 19 ways to maintain a Healthy Level of Insanity!!1. At lunch time, sit in your car with sunglases on and point a hair dryer at passing cars. See if they slow down.
2. Page yourself over the intercom. Don't disguise your voice.
3. Everytime someone asks you to do something, ask if they want fries with that.
4. Put your garbage can on your desk and label it "IN".
5. Put decaf in the coffee maker for 3 weeks. Once everyone has gotten over their caffeine addictions, switch to espresso.
6. In the memo field of all your checks, write "For smuggling diamonds".
7. Finish all your sentences with "In accordance with the Prophecy".
8. Don't use any punctuation.
9. As often as possible, skip rather then walk.
10. Order a diet water whenever you go out to eat- With a serious face.
11. Specify that your drive through order is "To go".
12. Sing along at the opera.
13. Put mosquito netting around your work area and play tropical sounds all day at work.
14. Go to a poetry recital and ask why the poems don't rhyme.
15. Five days in advance, tell your friends you can't attend their party because your not in the mood.
16. Have your coworkers address you by your wrestling name, Rock Bottom.
17. When the money comes out of the ATM, Scream "I won! I won".
18. When leaving the zoo, start running towards the parking lot yelling, "Run for you lives, they're loose!!"
19. Tell your children over dinner "Due to the economy. we are going to have to let one of you go."
I hope you got a lot of laughs from this like i did....send this to people who you feel is having a bad day, and give them something to smile about...i dunno about you..but i'm crazy enough to actually do some of these..hahhaa...watch out MISSISSAUGA I'm coming!!! 9月21日 InvincibleI memorized all the words for you But if you only knew How much that's just not like me I wait up late every night Just to hear your voice But you don't know that's nothing like me You know I wonder how you already figured out All these things that I try to hide All this time i've been hoping you don't find out All these things that I hide on the inside I can't be held responsible This is all so new to me Just when I think I'm invincible You come and happen to me I want to make sure everything is perfect for you If you only knew That's not like me to follow through Maybe even give up all these dead end dreams Just to be with you But you don't know that's nothing like me Hey yeah I wonder how you already figured out All these things that I try to hide All this time i've been hoping you don't find out All these things that I hide on the inside I can't be held responsible This is all so new to me Just when I think I'm invincible You come and happen to me Now I'm waking up I've finally had enough of this wreck of a lifetime I never thought I'd survive it Now I'm taking back All I gave up for that Leave my pain behind Wash these stains from my life Just when I thought all was lost You came and made it all okay I can't be held responsible This is all so new to me Just when I think I'm invincible You come and happen to me I can't be held responsible This is all so new to me Just when I think I'm invincible You come and happen to me I memorized all the words for you If you only knew How much that's just not like me 8月25日 Have you ever?Have you ever felt like no matter how hard you try, your life will always fall to peices around you. No matter how hard you pray and ask for better things, and try to be a better person it's never worth it? I'm going through that, and the worst part of it is, i was expecting it, yet it never makes it easy. You just know your gonna hurt a hell of a lot, and you try to deal with it the best way you can. It's over a guy, ya corny as hell, but i can't help the way i feel, and how much he means to me..but i can't do anything about him leaving. He's going away for 3 years to school...and even though i want him to stay i can't ask him too..i don't have the power.
All i am is the girl he was sorta seeing for the last 3 weeks of summer. He's the guy i've liked for 4 years...and i guess..i knew that i'd have to let him go...out of my life..out of my heart..but it hurts..and it's sooo hard..i don't want to..cause when i'm with him..i feel like the luckiest girl on the planet..and i feel happier then i've ever felt..I'm soo comfortable with him it's crazy. I never thought i could feel that way with anyone..but with him...the whole world disappears...and it's just me and him...I never feel that he wants me to be more, but who i am...that he doesn't expect me to change everything for him, but that he likes me just the way i am.
We started hanging out soo much practically everynight, watching movies, going bowling, going to the Drive in...great memories..that will have to keep me going because when he leaves...that'll be the end of everything..of me..of everything i would be...I hate being depressed it's the worst feeling in the world, nothin anyone can do would cheer you up, your mind keeps playing over that one peice of your life that made you that way, it keeps going and going until you feel like your gonna go insane. You stop wanting to do anything, all emotions get blocked up, you feel like you have nothing left, there's nothing you want anymore, the one thing that meant the world and more to you is gone...and he doesn't realize the impact it has set on your life, and you don't wish for him to ever find out..cause you don't want to know his reaction, to find out if he gives a damn or not..it would hurt too much cause no matter how he feels they both would hurt you.
If he feels bad about leaving and actually cares, you feel worse cause he starts feeling guilty and beating himself up for it..or the other choice..he doesn't care about your suffering..and you feel like the world should swallow you up right then and there..that he just killed you with all his hate..or insensitivity..which ever it may be..
i probably should have turned this into a story..but i can barely think up anything catchy or awesome for a story..my minds too hectic to really think about anything...which sucks..i'm tired..haven't slept well in the last couple days..which tends to happen during sleepovers for me..cause we share beds and stuff...soo i'm use to having mine to myself..and it's hard when your cramped..to really sleep well..ah well..she's gone now..soo i'll sleep i guess better tonight..probably not though..cause i won't be able to stop thinking about my current predicament...woe me..anyways...have to leave for work like soon sooo i better finish this off..before my hands hurt and my eyes droop...later Dayz 8月3日 Seize the daySeize the day or die regretting the time you lost It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time But I'm too young to worry These streets we travel on will undergo our same lost past I found you here, now please just stay for a while I can move on with you around I hand you my mortal life, but will it be forever? I'd do anything for a smile, holding you 'til our time is done We both know the day will come, but I don't want to leave you I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time But I'm too young to worry (a melody, a memory, or just one picture) Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over Newborn life replacing all of us, changing this fable we live in No longer needed here so where do we go? Will you take a journey tonight, follow me past the walls of death? But girl, what if there is no eternal life? I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time But I'm too young to worry (a melody, a memory, or just one picture) Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over Trials in life, questions of us existing here, don't wanna die alone without you here Please tell me what we have is real So, what if I never hold you, yeah, or kiss your lips again? Woooaaah, so I never want to leave you and the memories for us to see I beg don't leave me Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over Trials in life, questions of us existing here, don't wanna die alone without you here Please tell me what we have is real Silence you lost me, no chance for one more day [x2 then continues in the background] I stand here alone Falling away from you, no chance to get back home I stand here alone Falling away from you, no chance to get back home 7月20日 Sexiest Men Alive!! Paul Walker-
James Franco-
Johnny Depp-
Channing Tatum-
Wentworth Miller-
Heath Ledger-
Jake Gyllenhaal-
Ryan Gosling-
Ryan Reynolds-
Matthew McConaughey-
Keanu Reeves-
Orlando Bloom-
Scott Speedman-
Mark Ruffalo-
Micheal Vartan-
Dane Cook-
Colin Ferrell-
Gerard Butler-
Benjamin Mckenzie-
Tyler Durden-
Josh Hartnett-
Jay Hernandez-
Matthew Fox-
Ben Taylor-
Adam Brody-
David Beckham-
Chad Michael Murray-
Johnny Noxville-
Tom Welling-
Viggo Mortensen-
Patrick Demsey-
Hayden Christensen-
Justin Bruenig-
Cameron Matheson-
Josh Lucas-
Russell Crowe(In Gladiator)-
Chris Evans-
Vin Diesel-
Elijah Wood-
Sean William Scott-
James Denton-
Matt Leblanc-
Matt Damon-
Thorsten Kaye-
David Boreanaz-
Hugh Jackman-
Ps. There's no particular order..i just put the names down as they came to me..
7月8日 Like the angelThey turn the lights down low, In shadows hiding from the world, Only coming out when it gets cold The seas part when they hit the floor, The voices carry on and out the door And everything you touch turns into gold Like the angel you are left creating A lightness in my chest, Your eyes they penetrate me, (your answer's always 'maybe') That's when I got up and left A beating heart and a microphone, A ticking clock in an empty home Still tells of these times so long ago, And even though I've come so far, I know I've got so far to go and Any day now I'll explode Like the angel you are left creating A lightness in my chest, Your eyes they penetrate me, (your answer's always 'maybe') That's when I got up and left And each and everyday will lead into tomorrow And tomorrow brings one less day without you But don't wait up just leave the light on 'Cause all the roads that I might take will all one day lead back to you And like the angel you are left creating A lightness in my chest, Your eyes they penetrate me, (never cease to amaze me) That's when I got up and left 6月30日 ColoursCan you feel it crush you? Does it seem to bring the worst in you out? There's no running away from these things that hold you down Do they complicate you because they make you feel like this? Of all the colors that you've shined this is surely not your best But you should know these colors that you're shining are... [Chorus x2:] Surely not the best colors that you shine I know you feel alone, yeah, and no one else can figure you out But don't you ever turn away from the ones that help you down? Well they'd love to save you. Don't you know they love to see you smile? But these colors that you've shined are surely not your style [Chorus x2] I know you're feeling like you're lost But you should know these colors that you're shinin are I know you're feeling like you're lost, You feel you've drifted way too far Did you know these colors that you're shinin' are [Chorus x2] Surely not the best.. (I know you're feeling like you're lost) Colors that you shine.. (but you should know these colors that you're shining are) Surely not the best.. (I know you're feeling like you're lost you feel you`ve drifted way too far) Did you know these colors that you're shinin' are.. 6月29日 ChangedOnly yesturday i could feel all the pain, the regret, the failure sinking in, ripping at my soul, tearing me to pieces. My mind was weak, i couldn't hold on to any one thought, it was like a circus running through my head, one peice after another, never the same, always bigger then the last. I needed a distraction, but every time someone tried, my thoughts would drift back, i couldn't take it. I was going insane, i could feel it deep down. The welling of tears began, i felt like a water fountain sprouting water like the earth was parched. The more i cried, the less the earth was sated, and i felt like everything was trying to drag me down, to draw every last emotion from me. I tried to resist, but it almost broke me. I'm just stripped of all that i was, and what i should believe. Am i different somehow? What could i do to go back? I made the biggest mistake of my life, and yet no one can tell, there is no mark on me, no sign pointing at me. A lightening bolt hasn't struck me down where i stand, so why do i feel like the world is crashing in on me. Like if i speak about what happened i would lose all that i love. Will you be ashamed of me? Would you refuse to listen, to try and understand. I don't think you would, and i care to much about you to let you go, maybe i'm selfish in an unselfish manner, but for me, your the world. You are what i wake up in the morning for, why i continue to live.
I'm still waiting for you to yell, to scream, to rage and hate me. But you look at me, that disappointment, and all that hurt in your eyes, and i want to die, i can't take it, i would've rather dealt with the anger, because i can yell back, but i can't show disappointment, because i'm not disappointed in you, i hate myself more then i've ever hated myself before, the reason? well I did something i never should have done, and now i'm stuck with the guilt and the knowledge that i ripped us apart.
I'll just sit here and cry, curled up in a ball under a brige, letting the water splash around me, as my tears add to the raising waves. I don't want to live any longer. Not without you, my pillar of strength, the sunshine of my day, the heat in the frigid cold. I don't deserve your forgiveness and never will i ask for it. I have made my bed, now i must lay in it, as the saying goes. I changed for you, but it wasn't enough, i had to do something to ruin it, and i'm sorry. I'm on my knees crying my heart out to you that i'm sorry, but i don't want you to take me back, or even forgive me, i want you to yell at me, tell me you hate me, then i know that i can never hurt you again.
You changed me, you may think not in a good way, but i disagree, you made me wake up and realize how much i actually truly cared about life and happiness, until i lost it all.
(This is nothin real personal ok..soo don't worry about it...) 6月22日 Cold (But i'm still here)Hello, I'm your martyr, will you be my gangster can you feel my trigger hand, moving further down your back when you hide, hide inside that body but just remember that when I touch you the more you shake, the more you give away cold, but I'm still here, blind, 'cause I'm so blind, say never we're far from comfortable this time cold, now we're so cold, mine, and you're not mine, say never we're far from obvious this time wait, another minute here, time will kill us after all now can you feel its second hand wrapped around your neck so fall into my eyes and fall into my lies but don't you forget the more you turn away, the more I want you to stay cold, but I'm still here, blind, 'cause I'm so blind, say never we're far from comfortable this time cold, now we're so cold, mine, and you're not mine, say never we're far from obvious this time you're so endearing, you're so beautiful, well I don't look like they do, and I don't love like they do but I don't hate like they do am I ever on your mind? cold, but I'm still here, blind, 'cause I'm so blind, say never we're far from comfortable this time cold, now we're so cold, mine, and you're not mine, say never we're far from obvious this time COLD, you broke me from the very first night I'd love you 'til the day that I die we're far too comfortable this time COLD, I loved you from the very first night you broke me 'til the day that I die I'm far too obvious this time Hate meI have to block out thoughts of you so I don’t lose my head They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I’m alone Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain An ounce of peace is all I want for you. Will you never call again? And will you never say that you love me just to put it in my face? And will you never try to reach me? It is I that wanted space Hate me today Hate me tomorrow Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you I’m sober now for 3 whole months it’s one accomplishment that you helped me with The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won’t touch again In a sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take So I’ll drive so fucking far away that I never cross your mind And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind Hate me today Hate me tomorrow Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you Hate me in ways Yeah ways hard to swallow Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I had made And like a baby boy I never was a man Until I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hand And then I fell down yelling “make it go away!” Just make a smile come back and shine just like it used to be And then she whispered “How can you do this to me?” Hate me today Hate me tomorrow Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you Hate me in ways Yeah ways hard to swallow Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you |
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